This project is a little bit unusual. So how insane am I?
Up until I was 30 years old or so I never thought about my finances long term. I survived. Went on a few adventures. I saved money for some months, and spent it exploring the world. I never got reckless: I always made sure I was okay, that I wouldn’t need to borrow money to survive. Never even close to it.
Then I slowly started becoming aware that it’s actually possible to invest money, even if you aren’t well educated in this sort of thing. To build up some wealth for later in life. To make it grow.
That’s not what this article is about. This is daygame blog and I’m going to talk about what I’m sacrificing for daygame.
We have massive sleeping potential. I would like to tell you that you can just sit and meditate and it will all start to bloom, that you will become superhuman. But I don’t believe that. Sure that can happen to one person in a thousand. You hear their story on youtube and feel like everything’s going to be okay.
But it’s more likely that you are one of the 999 who sat and meditated and squeezed really hard to manifest a more beautiful consciousness, and nothing happened. For a week you felt you had found something new, a key that you’ve been looking for, something that will remove that weird feeling of meaninglessness. Then it’s back to the same.
But if you HAVE TO do something, your potential will suddenly mobilize. You won’t feel it happen, you’ll be too caught up in taking action. But later you will think about it, and you will realize: wow, I actually did it. I was doing that thing that I always wanted to be able to do. Potential moves fast. It’s like a river blasting through a wadi after a rainstorm.
I made a pretty big financial sacrifice for daygame. Let me explain:
– In my previous hometown of Turku, I paid 325 €/month for a nice two-room apartment. That is a fantastic price and the location was good.
– In Helsinki, I will pay 795 €/month. The apartment is good. How big is the difference?
795 € – 325 € = 470 €
I will pay 470 €/month to practice daygame. To do something that’s practically free. Daygame is not the only reason I’m moving… but a strong one.
After all is said and done, I am more than happy to pay. I love women, I feel a bottomless curiosity towards them and I’m grateful I live in a time and place where I CAN do this. There’s many places in the world where you would be ostracized for something like this, even physically harmed.
However, the 470 €/month does sting me. Perhaps this sting will spur me into action with greater diligence. A mad sacrifice to be sure, but if it’s never done, how can I ever know?
This may or may not resonate with you. I started martial arts once upon a time, because not knowing what I’m capable of was unbearable. Not just in a negative sense. It was a curiosity that became urgent, burning. Some people don’t feel this. I don’t even care whether it’s “good” or “bad” to have this need. It’s just the cards in my hand. Maybe you have different cards. There are men with nothing like this whom I respect deeply. Sometimes I think it would be easier… but it’s pointless. I can never be like that. So I pay my 470 €/month.
There you go. If you were dealt the cards of burning curiosity, I hope that inspires you.
But my sacrifice goes deeper than that.
– I am 32 years old and after moving, I have practically no wealth at all, with the exception of about 2600 € in some conservative investments.
– My income will be 2600 €/month + about 100 € for some extra things like travelling. I pay 15% tax, so 2700*0,85 = 2295 €, about 2300 €
– Monthly expenses: about 700 €
After spending most of my adult life fucking around financially, I have come to believe that it would be very stupid not to start investing right now. So how much can I save up?
In Helsinki, doing daygame:
2300 € – about 800 € rent – 700 € expenses = 800 €
In my previous hometown, with very limited daygame capacity:
2300 € – about 330 € rent – 700 € expenses = 1270 €
Life is full of surprises. So, it’s best to deduct another 150 €/month. Maybe I want to start a hobby or take a trip. Maybe I rescue a crippled raven.
Helsinki daygame: 650 €
Small town no game: 1120 €
I’m a slow learner, so for the experiment’s sake, let’s put a three-year horizon on this daygame project.
Helsinki daygame: 3 years * 12 months * 650 € = 23 400 €
Small town no game: 3 years * 12 months * 1120 € = 40 320 €
Total price for not manning up, settling down and getting married like a normal person: 40 320 € – 23 400 € = 16 920 €
When you add insult upon injury, in Finnish we call it “twisting the knife in the wound”. To add a final twist, 40 000 € could be used as downpayment for a state-guaranteed, high interest protected mortgage for a very nice apartment anywhere in Finland. Then I could pay my own mortgage instead of someone else’s… maybe rent out a room and make exxxtra cash $$$…
Not only the cards that we are dealt, but our actions in the past. Here I am and this is what I will do now. Maybe I’ll meet some nice girls.